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Checking In…

I know it’s been a while since I’ve last blogged but I’m sorry 😦 I’ve been so busy with AIT that I’ve neglected every part of my writing… unless you count captions in class haha. It’s been an up and down ride here in the Army but so many of the sergeants I’ve met here have told me it gets better when I get out of training and get into the operational Army which is comforting. I don’t hate it, it’s just an adjustment. Tomorrow we are going on a Field Training/Tactical Exercise (FTX) and I’m ready for it. It’s been three months since I’ve done a ruck march and slept outside, but I think this will be such a good experience for me to get ready for combat camera. Soon I’ll post some of my released pictures that I’m pretty proud of. I still have a lot to learn but I know I’ll get there.

 

 

Guess Who’s Back?

Hey y’all!

Well I’m out of basic. I graduated April 3rd and got to Fort Meade for AIT on the 4th. So I’ve been here for a hot minute. I’m been learning to adjust to this new place and the military in general. It’s a HUGE adjustment. We still can’t have our phones until we phase up… but luckily I’ll be able to phase up as soon as I pass my PT test on Monday. So I’m excited. I’ve been a little like worried though because I feel like I suck hard at photography but I guess I have to start somewhere…

It’s been alright here. Like there have been times that I’ve really hated life and have been stressed but I think everyone feels like that at times… well, here at the detachment haha. Basic was an experience. One that I really can’t describe.

Ok: so I’m final back to finish this post. Phased up whomp whomp. So AIT life is going to get better. I’ll try and do better about blogging. Sorry my first post back is awful haha. But if anyone has any questions about basic or AIT or army life send them to me via email and I’ll do a q&a post ASAP.

So Long, Farewell, Auf Weidersehen…

This will be my last blog post for at least ten weeks until I graduate from BCT. Oh yeah, I’m determined to graduate. I will hopefully get my laptop and be able to blog at AIT so until then, I just want to say I hope you wait for me. Never let go, Jack… oops nevermind.

I’m excited and nervous and ACK! I will miss all of my friends and family and especially William and Chase. William is brushing my hair and I am getting my lovings in now while I can. I know it’s going to be hard for all three of us but I’m doing it for them. To make our lives better. I’m as ready for the unknown as I can be haha. I hope all goes well. I know it’s going to be tough work and it’ll be a MAJOR adjustment, but I’m going to do my best and not give up.

I’m thankful to the few people who’ve been there and have given me advice and shared stories. I’m still nervous, but I’m sure I’ll be fine. I’m tough. And I’d much rather be getting smoked by drill sergeants than making calendars and laminating stuff lol.

So goodbye my faithful readers. See you on the other side!

Dear Fellow Future Soldiers

Here we are at a new year. Most of the future soldiers I know are preparing to leave soon, much like myself. Some of you may have a few more weeks or even months before you leave for basic combat training.

I just want to say that we can do it. I can do it and you can do it.

I’ve been getting excited but nervous at the same time. I read things online about what it’s like at boot camp and I’ve watched the videos. But really, I have zero idea what to expect and there have been times where I have lay awake at night thinking “What the hell did I get myself into?” But I am proud of my enlistment and am very proud of myself for all of the PT and studying I’ve been doing in order to better myself before I get to Fort Jackson.

I hope you all have been working hard instead of hardly working and keeping a strong mind as well as body. I hope you’re doing this for the right reasons and are looking forward to serving our country (even if the money and health benefits are good too lol). We’re going to miss our families and our friends and it’s going to be a lot of hard work and so much change in such a short time. What I want to say to you guys is: We can do it. I said it above I know. But we really can. I don’t know about all of you, but I have people in my life who don’t believe in me. Ok, they’re not big in my life. It’s mostly my husband’s co-workers and family. People who don’t really know me. But I’m sure there are many of you in the same boat. But remember that it doesn’t matter what anyone thinks. Just believe in yourself. And please don’t do anything stupid once you get there. Or beforehand.

I have some customers at my store who have served in various branches of the military and have given me some good advice. I hope you guys have people like that for you. Mostly they tell me that I will have fun; it’ll be hard work, but I will have fun. One sweet man that is a regular came in and before giving me a hug he told me to make sure I listen to the Drill Sergeant, but imagine something pleasant so I’d take the info in better. I don’t know if that’ll happen but I know that they do care about making us into better soldiers, we just gotta listen and learn.

There will be moments when we doubt ourselves and our decisions and think “Holy crap, what did I do?” We did something that 99% of the nation won’t do. Will will push through and fight and work hard to become the best soldiers we can be. We can do it. This might be my last blog post for a while (unless I blog tomorrow) because I leave very soon so I want to say that I believe in you guys and HOOAH!

Happy Birthday to Me…

28…

I can’t believe I’m that old. But really, I’m not old. 28 is pretty damn young. Even if the 17 year old at future soldier training said “gross” when he heard me tell our platoon captain my age.

So how do I feel? Besides a little tipsy… I feel good. I think this is going to be a life-changing year. I mean, I do leave for basic in a few days so that’s a huge change. I think it will be the best change I’ve made in a long time.

Omg. Tripp van der Bilt on Gossip Girl is driving a Land Rover and I want one so bad… That’ll be my gift to myself once I become an officer.

Ok back to business. I think this year will be great. I don’t feel “old”, I feel renewed and I think I’m actually going to make a goals or “bucket” list. But my goals change often haha. I want to live my life to the fullest and be the best I can be and blah blah blah. But for real. I am dedicated to the Army and ready as I can be for whatever they throw at me. I want to do this so badly and want to succeed.

But I’m not thinking about boot camp tonight! This is my birthday and this is my last weekend home so I plan on making it fun while still working out and keeping myself in check. I’m ready for the next several years with the Army and I can’t wait to start my journey!

The Run

This morning I dropped off William at school, kissed his cheek, ruffled his hair, said goodbye.

Drove to the park and went on a run.

Training to be a better me. There won’t be many more mornings like this. I leave soon and for nine months there will be no sweet baby cuddles or carrying the kiddo to school. No more “good mornings” said to Chase or William.

Pick up the pace. Focus on breathing. I wish I had been more diligent with running. Soon my days won’t be my own anymore. Not that I have too much freedom now. Work, wife, mom, work, wife, mom. But my time is spent with my approval.

The wind hits me and tears spring to my eyes. Wipe them off with a gloved hand. This is a choice I made. I will be the best soldier I can be. I will get through this. I will fight for it. Because it is for them. It’s also for me. I can be strong. I will be strong. They will be ok without me. They will adjust. It’s not forever.

Slow down. Put my hands on my head and cool down. Perfect morning for a run. I finally have found my purpose. I have a reason to fight and work harder than ever before. Everything I’ve done the past several years has been for my family. Everything will work out.

I walk to my car, open the door, and drive home. I won’t get to do this much longer.

So Close…

I have less than two weeks left until I ship for basic training. I’ve been running around running errands and trying to make sure I’m prepared for it. The errands are pretty much making sure that everything is prepared for Chase and William while I’m gone so things are less hard on them. And then add future soldier PT and work on top of that and I haven’t really had too much time to blog.

I’m nervous and excited about going. I’m not looking forward to early mornings and drill sergeants being in my face but this is the path I’ve chosen and I knew what I signed up for. I think it’ll make me better. And it’ll be beneficial to my family as well.

I never even thought I’d be here. Yesterday I got a call from a news station that I wanted to work for so badly a few months ago for a job interview. It was so weird. I guess it was weird because I felt a little bummed that it took them this long to call me, but yet I have a job doing the same thing in the Army. The man who called me told me that they had someone working there who used to do my MOS and to bring them my resume when I’m out. But who knows if I’ll be out in 8 or 20 years? I know it’ll give me great experience for when I’m out of the Army, especially if I can re-class to Public Affairs. Anyway, I’m rambling. But I’m very excited about this decision.

I am excited about going to boot camp, but I’m also kinda nervous about how William will take me being gone for so long. We’ve been trying to tell him where I’m going and that I’m coming back, but I really don’t know how much of it he gets, you know. I’m just afraid that I’ll see him at graduation and he won’t want anything to do with me. Or that he’s going to have a hard time while I’m away. I don’t worry too much about Chase. He’s strong and I know he’ll miss me but he will be ok while I’m gone.

So for now I’m just going to watch Gossip Girl and clean and try to enjoy my last days here before I start my new life.